Life has been a bit tricky of late… I have been handed some Lemons, giant sized Lemons. Making Lemonade has been tough especially when I don’t particularly like Lemonade.
When this does happen though it gives you a space to ponder, to re-assess life. I have literally been uprooted from my comfortable space and flung outside. My reputation ( love that word… sarcastly) is at stake and I have been forced to face my shame and my shadow nature. I have had to “look” long and hard at myself and where I am and question :-
What Life is showing me?
What does it want from me?
Do I have what it takes?
What is my immediate response? or reaction?
How am I responsible for what is happening?
and
What do I really believe about myself?

There is a tendancy to “sleep” through our days and to NOT really see what is going on coz then we would have to take responsibility for it. If we ignore it….it might go away. Only it doesnt, what usually happens is that it blows up in our face and we say…What the hell happened? knowing full well that there were sign posts along the way that we refused to acknowledge.

I am an idealist and an optimist, most of the time great qualities when you have a good dose of realism. Current circumstances have shown me how I always want things to come out “nice”. How I am not aware of how much I put on the Rose Colored Glasses. Recent events have shown me that I hold people in a Idealistic light…I like to see the Good…. I have unreal expectations and I project my own wishes and wants on to others. I also don’t want to look at my motives unless they are “good” because I would never manipulate anyone LOL! I also see how I blame others for my own circumstances. Hahahahaha….because I am nice and perfect. Other people are the manipulators LOL.

In every day life dealing with all sorts of people its not all good…there is plenty of shit too…and its ok to see that and to own it. The test is to not get caught up in the drama of it.

The truth is all people behave badly sometimes (and I am not exempt from this). We are emotional beings and our emotions give us an indication of what we are believing and what we are thinking.

Our emotions have usually been triggered by a past experience or a future worry.

At the moment Life feels a bit like a Roller Coaster and also there are things being presented that I for the first time feel ready for! like I am being fertilized with horse shit, that if I just reach for the horizon view and lock onto that, even when I am down in the depths then it will be ok because I am still growing.

Everything in the world has a positive and a negative its a natural phenomena – and it is what draws us together…think of a magnet, so it is normal to have both positive and negative emotions and a healthy balance is probably the desired outcome, that isnt always realistic though.

I think the far better solution is acceptance. Acceptance of what you are feeling. My experience is that feelings are fleeting, they move through us and depending on the story that we tell ourselves around the emotion, that depicts whether we feel good or bad. The thoughts and beliefs around the emotion are what can get us hooked.

If we can ask questions about the thoughts and beliefs and find out that they are not true (because 100% of the time they arent…because it either happened in the past or is fear of future event that we are thinking about) then we can bring awareness to the emotion and just feel it.

It is a bit tricky because our mind loves a good story and the Ego loves story and thinks that life will be boring if we are peaceful…..

the reality is that peaceful moment is anything but boring, its vibrant, alive and a launching pad for creative expression.

So when Life hands you Lemons….don’t make Lemonade…take a good bite, feel the bitterness and the sweetness and get excited about the possibilities of both.

Love and Blessings Prema