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How can I tell you about clearing Karma in the Ganga?
Is it just a ceremony? No, its so much more than that. From the moment I stepped out of the bus and began to walk down the stone steps, my heart started to beat faster. The bridge sways gently as I walk over it and looking down into the glacier depths, I have the feeling that she, Ma Ganga can take Life away so swiftly if I let her.

We reach the other side and walk down to the Beach, it’s surrounded by boulders and rocks and the sand is grey. The water has a green icy sheen to it. Janakiji, Brandon Bays has asked us to get clear on our prayer, to write them down. I spend a few minutes doing just that and they pour forth on to the page. It feels like I am clearing a generation of Karma, down my ancestral line, my grandmother, my mother, neither of them here in this life and yet their presense felt so strongly in my DNA, in my cells.

I find myself on my knees before her, Mother Ganga. I pray and surrender it all up. I pray for new beginnings, to be used in service. To follow my hearts desire.

My first steps in are tentative, and then it seems I have to give myself to her, I move more into the water, up to my thighs, and yet the icy coldness of the water is shocking to my body. I can feel my heart beating out of my chest and I am shivering, with coldness and with fear. Jean Luc catches my eyes and comes to me, taking my hands he leads me deeper into her depths. Relax and breathe he says, surrender to the cold. I feel myself doing just that. The cold is still penetrating me, I keep opening and going deeper and then he says let go and we immerge fully into her depths. I feel the closeness of her enveloping me in her arms, she seems to whisper sweet nothings to me, I burst up through the surface, shaking droplets of water from my face and hair. Its exhilarating, the body is still shaking and then a warmth begins to spread through me and I stop shaking, I feel immeasurably still, peaceful, warm like in a bath. It is no longer cold. I look around at all the shiny faces and singing and joyful shouting as others immerse themselves too. We join hands in circles and dance and sing and shout out prayers dunking our heads again and again.

What is this madness that overtakes us? This feeling of pure joy and peace all at the same time. I feel free, released, alive, energized.
Does the Ganga have magic powers? I don’t know, and yet there is some power, some energy that courses through her. The energy of life, Grace is so powerful in her that there is no fighting it. And even afterwards, she still courses through the body. I feel feverish, energy pulsating through in waves. Chi is released from places that previously held on. An awareness of the cells inside the body, pristine, crystal clear, fresh.

My hair feels soft and my face and skin. We go back to the hotel, I don’t want to shower, I want to keep her with me and I know that she is a part of me now. Integrating into every cell, my body has drank her in. There is a deep peace in knowing her, in letting her in, in allowing her to take from me, give to me, nourish me. I feel connected to her, cherished, sacred, alive.
The Indians bathe in her every year as a ritual to cleanse themselves, for new beginnings. Up in the Himalayas where we went in, the water was clear and clean, fresh, further down the hills even in Rishikesh she is beginning to have life and death thrown in her. The Indians wash in her, wash their clothes, send the ashes of their dead into her, she is the giver of life and the taker of life. She is a sacred River a timeless, immergence where Indians from all over will come to worship and bathe in her, and be returned to spirit in her.
How can I tell you about Clearing Karma in the Ganga.
I laugh and laugh at the impossibility!!!!!

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In the Tarot cards the Death Card is seen as a transformational card. It means that something is coming to an end and that something new is forming. Like a Phoenix we rise from the Ashes. It doesn’t actually mean Death.  Death in life though is more Final. No matter what your beliefs are and there has been much written about it in recent times so whether you believe in Reincarnation or that nothing happens to you……Death is… if your still living a mystery. 🙂
A few books in recent times the After Life of Billy Fingers click on the link to see

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and Dying to Be Me

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have explained a few things that seem to me to be plausible or at least more inviting than “nothing happens to you” and both of the above Books I have read and really enjoyed.

I have been a “Tarot reader” for a number of years now and also tune into the spirit world…and people who have passed over definitely come through for Clients. I always have a sensation and feeling for what the person was like in Life, I guess because that is who the Client can relate to. I have yet to ask anyone what they are like in death. 🙂

It does seem to me though that Death has become much more talked about and more colorful. It was always so BLACK 🙂
When I was a Child my father died and I was not allowed to go to the funeral (it was just not the done thing) children were thought to be too young. That decision really affected my life for many years to come, of course I didn’t know it then and neither did my mother. Nowadays Children of any age are accepted at funerals and the funeral itself is more about a celebration of the Life that has been lived than ever before.

Abby Buckley is a Death Cafe facilitator and has held many open discussion groups around Death. Abby’s son died in a Motor Vehicle accident when he was just 22 and this opened up a whole new path for her to explore.
The Death Cafe is about talking about anything to do with Death.

Abby also facilitates Before I die Walls. This is a public Blackboard for you to write on the thing you want to do before you die. Travel, climb Mt Everest, Sing in Public, Volunteer in Africa etc etc..

It is a trigger to think about the things that are important to you that you never seem to get to while you are busy Living… earning an income, buying a house, having kids etc etc

So can we control death? LOL its a fallacy to believe we can. We are however these days able to control the funeral. We can even pay for it beforehand and write our own Eulogy. Mum has it all organised. LOL

Death itself though can come at any time. We can cheat it or we might think we can, but is that really the truth?

In my work as an Emotional Therapist Journey work https://ms342.isrefer.com/go/JEAU20170916/premajoy/ I have discovered that most of us have a Fear of Death and this Fear makes us super careful in life…we cling to material things to support our security.

To get over our fear of death we do the work on the inside and then the outside changes….. The more we talk about Death, can discuss it, the less frightening it becomes and then life becomes more rewarding. Thought I would leave you with this quote from the wonderful Steve Jobs.

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new.     

Live Life to the fullest! Love Prema

Di Goulding is also a Medium Clairvoyant Energy Healer who has a lifetime of experience with those that have Passed Over. she has her own website Inspired by Spirit.

https://www.inspiredbyspirit.com.au

If you would like a reading with Di or myself for that matter please get in touch with us. Me through this website or on the FB page or PM me.

This post contains Affiliate Links and if you buy one of the books I mentioned I will make a small commission and you will get a great book. Win Win. 🙂 Love it.

Life has been a bit tricky of late… I have been handed some Lemons, giant sized Lemons. Making Lemonade has been tough especially when I don’t particularly like Lemonade.
When this does happen though it gives you a space to ponder, to re-assess life. I have literally been uprooted from my comfortable space and flung outside. My reputation ( love that word… sarcastly) is at stake and I have been forced to face my shame and my shadow nature. I have had to “look” long and hard at myself and where I am and question :-
What Life is showing me?
What does it want from me?
Do I have what it takes?
What is my immediate response? or reaction?
How am I responsible for what is happening?
and
What do I really believe about myself?

There is a tendancy to “sleep” through our days and to NOT really see what is going on coz then we would have to take responsibility for it. If we ignore it….it might go away. Only it doesnt, what usually happens is that it blows up in our face and we say…What the hell happened? knowing full well that there were sign posts along the way that we refused to acknowledge.

I am an idealist and an optimist, most of the time great qualities when you have a good dose of realism. Current circumstances have shown me how I always want things to come out “nice”. How I am not aware of how much I put on the Rose Colored Glasses. Recent events have shown me that I hold people in a Idealistic light…I like to see the Good…. I have unreal expectations and I project my own wishes and wants on to others. I also don’t want to look at my motives unless they are “good” because I would never manipulate anyone LOL! I also see how I blame others for my own circumstances. Hahahahaha….because I am nice and perfect. Other people are the manipulators LOL.

In every day life dealing with all sorts of people its not all good…there is plenty of shit too…and its ok to see that and to own it. The test is to not get caught up in the drama of it.

The truth is all people behave badly sometimes (and I am not exempt from this). We are emotional beings and our emotions give us an indication of what we are believing and what we are thinking.

Our emotions have usually been triggered by a past experience or a future worry.

At the moment Life feels a bit like a Roller Coaster and also there are things being presented that I for the first time feel ready for! like I am being fertilized with horse shit, that if I just reach for the horizon view and lock onto that, even when I am down in the depths then it will be ok because I am still growing.

Everything in the world has a positive and a negative its a natural phenomena – and it is what draws us together…think of a magnet, so it is normal to have both positive and negative emotions and a healthy balance is probably the desired outcome, that isnt always realistic though.

I think the far better solution is acceptance. Acceptance of what you are feeling. My experience is that feelings are fleeting, they move through us and depending on the story that we tell ourselves around the emotion, that depicts whether we feel good or bad. The thoughts and beliefs around the emotion are what can get us hooked.

If we can ask questions about the thoughts and beliefs and find out that they are not true (because 100% of the time they arent…because it either happened in the past or is fear of future event that we are thinking about) then we can bring awareness to the emotion and just feel it.

It is a bit tricky because our mind loves a good story and the Ego loves story and thinks that life will be boring if we are peaceful…..

the reality is that peaceful moment is anything but boring, its vibrant, alive and a launching pad for creative expression.

So when Life hands you Lemons….don’t make Lemonade…take a good bite, feel the bitterness and the sweetness and get excited about the possibilities of both.

Love and Blessings Prema

There is a saying that goes something like this…..God is laughing whilst you are making plans!

and wow do I feel like that at the moment.

What I thought I wanted to achieve here on this Website has taken a right hand turn and it is not at all what I thought and it seems its evolving as I write 🙂

How many times have you been in a situation where you felt dis-empowered? helpless? and no matter how much you plan, strive, push…….nothing is working? in fact it just seems that the result is a big fat nothing?

This is me at the moment. The rug has been pulled out from under me, there is drama, intrigue, back stabbing, deceit…..the list goes on and I am completely in the dark. I have no information and no matter how I cajole, push, connive, manipulate try to find answers there are non forth coming. I have tried to defend, justify, demand, assume, all to no avail. I remain helpless, dis-empowered and humiliated…….or do I?

It seems my only power… is to “sit still” in the middle of it all. Surrender to what is NOW, not try to get answers, figure it out, make an ending, walk away, get on with my life, listen to other peoples opinions and advice….my life is NOW and when I sit in it and accept fully there is power in that.

Sometimes when Life happens to us, we do whatever we can to gain control (all or non of the above and more besides) when we are backed into a corner we come out fighting or we give up. And what if we didn’t do that? What if we trust that whatever is happening is for our own good, that it is Grace filled? When we are in it…we don’t see the bigger picture, or the gift hiding in it. We only see what is in front of us and if we don’t like it we do whatever we can to not see it!  or not FEEL it.

A friend of mine Elizabeth Ellames who specialises in archetypes and the creator of “Living Attributes typology” – https://livingattributes.com/

poses the question….Who or what emerges in emergency?

For me its the Drama Queen…. whenever I feel threatened or backed into a corner…she comes out…. and usually blows everything out of proportion and makes it bigger than Ben Hurr.

Next comes the Escape Artist…she maps out an escape route like turning the situation around so its more Rosy, not so bad, no big deal or its so bad that I have to escape….go somewhere else, leave it behind, get away from it, forget about it and move on. 🙂

Then one of two things happen, I either go to the Outcast, where I am alone and usually unlovable or I go to the Pretender where I can pretend everything will be ok.

All of this is done in split seconds!!!!!! to avoid whatever I am feeling.

To AVOID what ever I am feeling……

and usually when the rug is pulled out What I am feeling is not very good….. shock, hurt, despair, dis-empowerment, useless, worthless, shame etc etc

However, what I have found time and time again is when I allow myself to feel the feelings I am trying to avoid, to “sit still” in the middle of them, they only last a few seconds and they lead me to empowerment, peace, clarity, acceptance.

No-one person, people or situation can “make me feel” something. That feeling is inside me. They can trigger something in me but the feeling is mine! How I react to any given situation, story or person is up to me, its my response/ability and that’s Powerful.

Its not about me hiding or squashing down my feelings. Its about me allowing myself to feel them and giving myself permission to feel, even the nasty stuff like Rage, shame, anger, hatred. I am not talking about expressing, projecting them or exploding them, its very simply feeling them. Sometimes that feels like they cant be contained…..especially Rage…I literally feel like I will explode or be out of control….and feeling RAGE just fully feeling it, nothing else, always leads to freedom and definitely I still have a body afterwards, I haven’t really exploded!

Of course all of this is easier said than done. I am by no means an expert, I am usually much better at hindsight than in the moment catching myself at it! for me the key, is in the feeling, watching and questioning, the stopping in the moment with NO Judgement or story and the acceptance of whatever is here and surrendering.

Also the key is in my willingness to uncover my Shadow, my short comings, be truthful with myself, really look at my reactions, beliefs and concepts. Who am I blaming or pointing the finger at? Be willing to forgive myself in all my beauty and ugliness, loving myself anyway and letting Grace love me and my heart lead me.

Surrendering to Life, even the Rugs.. all the Rugs….some get pulled out….some take me on a Magic Ride!

All is Valuable and takes me somewhere I have never been before. 🙂

I would love to hear your story, experience or opinion, please share a comment if you wish.

Blessings, Prema

A lot has happened since my last post….I have changed my name for one. I am now called Prema (a Sanskrit name meaning Love) and Joy is now my surname. The name was given to me in India and whilst there and coming home, it became apparent to me, that this is my name now. It has taken some folks (mostly family) a while to get used to it, and there have been all sorts of excuses, and Judgements, and it never bothered me one bit, coz changing my name was not a dilemma, it felt like there was no choice.  I understand where people are coming from, coz that was me.. Sorry you did what? changed your name? why? I never understood..even when they gave me their explanation… I had judgement around it….. interesting to be on the other side…..

And the second thing that’s changed… I no longer have a house of my own… or 3 Cats…  (rather fun, mad cat lady persona expired) LOL… I have become a House Sitter and a carer of other peoples animals…. its been mostly dogs so far interspersed with Alpacas and chickens, fish, birds, baby snake…. I have much much less possessions, 3 or 4 suitcases to be exact and some plastic stowaway boxes at my mums that contain photos and momentos.  My Cats are ALL happily re homed with lovely folks… (big sigh of relief)

WAS this a Mad Whim? possibly… do I feel good about it? Yes.. so far I am enjoying myself.. there are the times of transition (going from one house to another) where I feel a bit lost..I have no where I belong etc…. and then its over.. and I am good again, making friends and falling in love with some more fur buddies….

When I made the choice to “do this” everything fell into place… literally everything lined up in the Universe and made it happen effortlessly….. I really didn’t have to “do” much of anything, except be committed to my cause…… Big word Commitment!!!!! one I struggle with at certain times… It brings up fear in me… It often brings up things like, I have to get this right, I have to succeed at this, I have to put effort and get an outcome…..

REALLY that’s what it brings up in me… the dictionary meaning….

NOUN
1. the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc:-
“the company’s commitment to quality”

Synonyms: dedication, devotion, allegiance, loyalty, faithfulness

2. a pledge or undertaking
” I cannot make such a commitment at the moment”

Synonyms: Vow, promise, pledge, oath, contract, pact, deal, decision, resolution.
an engagement or obligation that restricts freedom of action:
“Young people delay major commitments including marriage and children”
Synonyms: responsibility, obligation, duty, tie, liability, task….

What does it bring up for you?

What I have discovered is that when I am fully committed to something, without fear of the outcome and whether or not I will get it right…. and my doing it is bigger than the fear and it feels like I have no other choice, the universe lines up and Wham bam its manifested…..before I know it…..

so I have to question myself…. why am I sometimes committed and sometimes not…..and the level of FEAR is always the answer.

and having many WHIMS as I am a intuitive person, they don’t always work out because I am not really underneath it all, committed….because feeling the fear and doing it anyway sometimes leaves me on middle ground….halfway down the cliff…etc…

I had a whim (inspiration) to go to Africa and do a workshop in the slums of Mombasa for girls 11-15 years old. I raised $6,000 on Pozible and went…again the Universe lined up everything just happened and I got so much more amazing experiences than I ever thought possible. It was freaking awesome….(you can read about it on the blog on www.awakeninghearts.com.au)

I had a whim to set up a business called Meditation Adventures (yes this business) and at the start a lot of things fell into place…. and website was built and equipment was bought and filming took place, and then things weren’t going smoothly, I had trouble with filming and the editing program and downloading etc etc etc…. I started to question if I was doing the right thing and my commitment began to waiver and…….here I am with it all and I am NOT doing it…as yet, like I thought I would be…. I have yet to discover which “part” of me is not fully committed to this…. that there is some little me, who is for what ever reason not jumping in at the moment……she has the brakes on!

As a healer and Journey Practitioner, why haven’t I done something about this?..well the answer is I have….. I have processed and worked on it and still Nada…nothing…. HERE is where I am…. so Acceptance is the only way for me to go and Prayer…accept where I am and let it go. Its not “off the ground” its not “working” at the moment. Put out a prayer for direction, for help, for shifting “whatever” is in the way.

Now the first bit in my “about me” on this website reads like this……

Hello My name is Prema and Meditation Adventures was born from a passion for Travel, Service and wanting to make a difference. It is the first time I have created a business which is solely based on enjoying what I do, being myself and sharing my gifts and talents.
I am passionate about connecting with people, living from the heart, making a difference, and living life to the full.

The funny thing is that with the House sitting…..I am travelling around to all these different places, being of service, connecting with people, making a difference, discovering new talents, being myself and enjoying what I do…..so some of it is working…. except not in the way I thought or think it should be as obviously none of this has anything to do with Meditation…. Unless you count my own meditation and chanting in the mornings…which I might add is not always appreciated by my animal audience…lol..

So the next bit has yet to manifest….

To connect, inspire, educate and collaborate with people, communities and places bringing greater peace and harmony to people’s lives through energy, awareness, meditation and programs. To support people and communities to live with purpose peace and passion.

Meditation Adventures provides Meditations and Webinars as an experience for you to improve your health and wellbeing. Meditations are filmed in Nature, sacred sites, temples and out the of the way places for you to enjoy from your home or office. Or you can meet me and join in live, follow the action on facebook or twitter and suggest places that you would like to experience, or if you live in a beautiful spot, invite me to your place.

So my question to myself is what am I learning about all this?…….. Patience, timing, believing in myself, what true commitment actually looks like, letting go of outcome and attachment to what it should be, my reliance or wanting someone else to “make it happen” or rescue me……..the idea of whatever I think it is…..the “persona” of what I have imagined it to be, do for me etc……

and through out history and with many artists, inventors, writers etc…they all took time to Hone, evolve, allow…….so perhaps the only commitment that is needed is resilience…..

and so through all of this…..

I am in the process of making Space…………………………for the Universe to “fill”.

As some wise person once said….its not about the destination…its about the journey…..

Love and Blessings Prema 🙂